It’s been a long time since I just sat and watched. After the perfect walk on a perfect Seattle night, I came home last night and just looked out my big living room window. In the most not creepy way possible, I watched the people across the way to see how they lived, I looked up at the stars for the first time in a long time. No TV, no laptop, no phone. Just my trusty Chopin station on Pandora and the light coming from the streetlight below. It was relaxing and therapeutic. This video by Dominic Boudreault sums it all up for me. So beautiful.
[Video by Dominic Boudreault. Music is “Time” by Hans Zimmer. (Gorgeous!)]
Filed under: Personal
It’s been way too long. My past few posts have talked all about my new adventures, but I also realize they’re a bit distant. I often struggle with how personal I should be here…ugh, I even struggle with posting pictures of myself, so anything of any real importance is just too much for me to handle. On one hand the best blogs are often the most personal and meaningful, but on the other I am really not interested in reading (or posting for that matter) a deeply personal diary entry. But in the end, I think in order for me to move ahead I need to share a few more parts of my new life, even the not-so-favorite parts. With all of the changes I have going on, I suppose the thing that has kept me away is that I am working to start this new life I have alone. After five years with my Lova things have changed and I am trying to move ahead.
I had a wonderful life in San Francisco and I was lucky enough to share it with my best friend. I’m in mourning for all of our favorite things, and it’s funny because I try to push them aside and then suddenly they float back through my mind just as I had let them slip away. It’s always those moments when it seems impossible that I’ll ever find anyone who will appreciate all of my favorite (really bad) movies, or who will tolerate how completely messy and lazy I can be. Things change though, and sometimes you don’t ever really get a reason, but it’s alright; I just have to believe that this is a HUGE lesson for the girl that hates even the slightest alterations. All in all I am doing well, I just miss my friend.
My hope is that by addressing this I can move ahead and get back to my little space here. I truly adore my little corner of the world, and in the end it keeps me sane and happy. To my loyal friends who are still around after my long absence, thank you and happy Friday. See you on Monday!